I woke up this afternoon feeling frustrated about that former cashier and the continued presence of her absence. I figure she does stuff such as make herself very, very scarce and inaccessible because it works for her and she really gets something out of it. This really pissed me off for a bit. Then, at around two o'clock this afternoon, I realized that, yeah, that kind of stuff will work for A WHILE, then it gets to the point where it won't work any more. That perpetually absent love interest stuff stopped working on me at about two o'clock this afternoon, coincidentally.
I also want to say that, yeah, even though she's been someone who has always been a LOT more absent in my life than she's ever been present, I think I still care for her a great deal. Just because the girl I saw at my job in late February of this year didn't exactly jibe with the mental picture I had of her from the last time I saw her in 2022, that doesn't mean I don't still care for her. I mean, I have no desire to try to pull off some hook-up level sexual encounter with her just because my heart didn't go "ding-ding-ding" when I saw her a few months ago. Hey, NOT wanting to treat someone shabbily can really put a guy like me on the road to wanting to treat someone well. That should count for something.
I also want to say that, yeah, even though she's been someone who has always been a LOT more absent in my life than she's ever been present, I think I still care for her a great deal. Just because the girl I saw at my job in late February of this year didn't exactly jibe with the mental picture I had of her from the last time I saw her in 2022, that doesn't mean I don't still care for her. I mean, I have no desire to try to pull off some hook-up level sexual encounter with her just because my heart didn't go "ding-ding-ding" when I saw her a few months ago. Hey, NOT wanting to treat someone shabbily can really put a guy like me on the road to wanting to treat someone well. That should count for something.
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