Within reason

I've decided to patronize that business where, as of about a month and a half ago, that young woman worked, and where she maybe still works these days.  In my last post I said that I didn't want to go to this business because I didn't want her to accuse me of stalking her or otherwise bothering her.  Last night I thought again about how nice she acted towards me when I approached her for social reasons in late October of last year.  Then I thought again about MY accusation that SHE might frivolously accuse me of stalking her, and I decided to call bullshit on myself for that.  I think her kindness towards me when I approached her for social reasons last October sufficiently earned my trust to the point where saying she'd hysterically accuse me, for no good reason, of stalking her strikes me as really unfair.

My biggest source of frustration during the time after I approached her stemmed, in large part, from the feeling that nothing had changed between me and her.  That may be true, and I couldn't tell if it had.  I decided that things were going to change whether she was on board for that change or not, but rather than try to come in closer to her in some way, I decided to go the other way.  I hope that the distance I put between us and the time apart has helped calm me down to the point where I'm not nearly as anxious as I was for things to get somewhere between us.  If this young woman still works at this business, I believe she'll probably tolerate my presence to some extent, even at times she works there, as long as I don't get too crazy with all of that.