I feel as if this situation involving that famous person I've gone on and on about these past several months finds itself in the winding down phase of these kinds of deals I get myself into with unavailable women. I could be wrong about that. I certainly hope I'm not wrong about that. If I saw her at a museum or other public place with her full contingent of security and whatnot, I sure as hell don't think I'd want to approach her to introduce myself. Even if she didn't have her security and I saw her in a museum, well, that's all fantasy scenario speculation. Who knows?
As far as approaching more available, accessible, approachable women for the kinds of basic social interactions that I find sorely lacking when I make it about unavailable women, well, I'm open to such interactions, but I don't want to force anything in that direction, either. I think if I looked as if I was trying too hard in such situations, that would not come across well to the women I wanted to talk to.
What happens in the wake of my fixation on that "A" list celebrity? How do I top that? That question captures my imagination to some extent. Will I just find some other unavailable type to get hung up on, or did my fixation on her and its constructively executed resolution, thanks to me, represent a turning point for my tendency to get hung up on all conceivable categories of unavailable women? Is recovery from love addiction progressive, as I've postulated before? What would progress look like from here on out? Will I enter a new, better phase in my relationship with women, or will I just stay stuck in the same rut, but able to manage the love addiction really, really well?
If I do get hung up on someone else, how long will that take before that happens? What will be the circumstances? What setting? My best guess involves the notion that I could have a year or a year and a half as an unavailable-love-interest-free guy before someone else could even conceivably come along. Would that person come from the same place as the previous two?
I mean, I figure that the former grocery store cashier and that famous person tried to execute some vendetta against me on behalf of someone from my distant past. Would the next one be trying to execute this exact same agenda on the behalf of the same person, or would the next unavailable woman just be some dumb kid who knows nothing of the situation I believe I found myself these past, oh, fifteen years or so with this one person from my long ago past?
What if no more dauntingly adversarial situations of the nature I've faced, one after the other, since 2014 or so, come my way? Will all those who try me just prove easy matches for me to win, or will no more adversarial situations of the nature of these past eleven years happen at all, ever? Will life lose all meaning if that's the case?
I don't think life would cease to have any meaning in the prospective absence of such personal conflicts, any more than the prospect of life losing all purpose without cigarettes, booze, or drugs. Yeah, I figure I'll give it a year, year and a half to see how things shake out for me. My health is pretty good, and I have stuff to do creatively, and my employment prospects look pretty good, so I should not have too many distractions that would impede on my ability to assess my over all relationship with women I've so ardently sought to improve since 2009.
As far as approaching more available, accessible, approachable women for the kinds of basic social interactions that I find sorely lacking when I make it about unavailable women, well, I'm open to such interactions, but I don't want to force anything in that direction, either. I think if I looked as if I was trying too hard in such situations, that would not come across well to the women I wanted to talk to.
What happens in the wake of my fixation on that "A" list celebrity? How do I top that? That question captures my imagination to some extent. Will I just find some other unavailable type to get hung up on, or did my fixation on her and its constructively executed resolution, thanks to me, represent a turning point for my tendency to get hung up on all conceivable categories of unavailable women? Is recovery from love addiction progressive, as I've postulated before? What would progress look like from here on out? Will I enter a new, better phase in my relationship with women, or will I just stay stuck in the same rut, but able to manage the love addiction really, really well?
If I do get hung up on someone else, how long will that take before that happens? What will be the circumstances? What setting? My best guess involves the notion that I could have a year or a year and a half as an unavailable-love-interest-free guy before someone else could even conceivably come along. Would that person come from the same place as the previous two?
I mean, I figure that the former grocery store cashier and that famous person tried to execute some vendetta against me on behalf of someone from my distant past. Would the next one be trying to execute this exact same agenda on the behalf of the same person, or would the next unavailable woman just be some dumb kid who knows nothing of the situation I believe I found myself these past, oh, fifteen years or so with this one person from my long ago past?
What if no more dauntingly adversarial situations of the nature I've faced, one after the other, since 2014 or so, come my way? Will all those who try me just prove easy matches for me to win, or will no more adversarial situations of the nature of these past eleven years happen at all, ever? Will life lose all meaning if that's the case?
I don't think life would cease to have any meaning in the prospective absence of such personal conflicts, any more than the prospect of life losing all purpose without cigarettes, booze, or drugs. Yeah, I figure I'll give it a year, year and a half to see how things shake out for me. My health is pretty good, and I have stuff to do creatively, and my employment prospects look pretty good, so I should not have too many distractions that would impede on my ability to assess my over all relationship with women I've so ardently sought to improve since 2009.
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