I had a therapist appointment Friday, but the online therapist canceled the appointment a couple of minutes after it was scheduled to begin. I booked another one, and I plan to go through with it. I decided my goal for therapy is to keep going until I feel that this situation regarding this famous woman I've gone on and on about feels sufficiently resolved. That's a tough call, because one often doesn't know whether these situations are over at many different points. However, that's the goal I've decided to shoot for with this decision to see a therapist.
I feel pretty good about my positioning in regards to this famous person whom I've never met. If my last post regarding her-the one where I mention Kinky Friedman- indicates a frame of mind TOO willing to let someone I care for slip through my fingers, then so be it. I decided today that if the cost of living my personal life in a sustainable, viable manner means that romantic love eludes my grasp, then so be it. I'm not going back to the old ways.
The old ways seem insane now. Any given moment of my day to day existence saw me looking to connect with women, whether in my head or in the world. This may not sound like much of a problem to some people, but for me, yeah. The mindset reflected in my Kinky Friedman post has worked wonders for my health and well-being. If, as I sometimes fear, this mindset does NOT work THIS ONE TIME in regards to this ONE (famous) PERSON (whom I've never met) to the point where my whole approach to these dilemmas becomes invalid and wrong, well, how was I to know that? I'm only going by what has worked so well for me in the past. And no, not working well in the sense that I've found true love everlasting, but rather, that I don't have those crash and burn episodes due to my ceaseless quest for love everlasting. Nope, not going back to those old ways.
I feel pretty good about my positioning in regards to this famous person whom I've never met. If my last post regarding her-the one where I mention Kinky Friedman- indicates a frame of mind TOO willing to let someone I care for slip through my fingers, then so be it. I decided today that if the cost of living my personal life in a sustainable, viable manner means that romantic love eludes my grasp, then so be it. I'm not going back to the old ways.
The old ways seem insane now. Any given moment of my day to day existence saw me looking to connect with women, whether in my head or in the world. This may not sound like much of a problem to some people, but for me, yeah. The mindset reflected in my Kinky Friedman post has worked wonders for my health and well-being. If, as I sometimes fear, this mindset does NOT work THIS ONE TIME in regards to this ONE (famous) PERSON (whom I've never met) to the point where my whole approach to these dilemmas becomes invalid and wrong, well, how was I to know that? I'm only going by what has worked so well for me in the past. And no, not working well in the sense that I've found true love everlasting, but rather, that I don't have those crash and burn episodes due to my ceaseless quest for love everlasting. Nope, not going back to those old ways.
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