I guess the idea that she doesn't even know this blog exists, nor my, good god, ever-burning torch for her-sorry, nothing I can do about it, as far as I know- the idea that she doesn't even know about this stuff exists as a possibility, I guess. That would mean my decision to refrain from patronizing this business at the times I knew her to work there would mean nothing to her, either. Well, then I wouldn't feel so bad about potentially abandoning her and forsaking her. I would never have to second guess my decision to refrain from patronizing this business at the times I knew her to work there.
Then my statement in my last post about how I still think about her all the time and still care for her a great deal would resemble a tree that falls in the forest with no one to hear. But I would bet at least even money on the idea that she does read this blog, and she does know that I care for her a great deal, and that I can now ride off into the sunset and not worry that she never knew of my feelings for her. I still know very little about her, you see. I don't even know her last name. My friend that I mentioned early last year that worked there at the time hasn't seemed to work there in a long while. I would bet even money that this blog can communicate significant things from me to this young woman, and represents a significant part of our deal, and that she knows that my heart stays with her, no matter her current life circumstances, or whether I show up at her place of employment at a time when she works there. Things seem okay, from what I can tell, but I still know very little about her end of it.