I talk quite a bit about the attractive young female employees at these businesses that I patronize on a day to day basis. Several years ago I made it my goal with anyone whom I felt an attraction to, but that I only knew in such a context, that is, that I knew as an employee of a business that I patronize, I made it my goal to refrain from making such a person over into a love interest. I essentially made it my goal because I did not want such a person to level the accusation at me to those around her that I was trying to make them into my girlfriend.
In my youth, the unspoken idea that I HAD to have a love interest in order to play a part in the love game seemed start a lot of trouble for me. I can remember in high school that I would get so bummed out in any interactions with the girls around me that I wanted to get something going with. It didn't seem to matter whom I fixated on, I always seemed to wind up feeling really crappy that things didn't seem to have any possibility of working out for me. I figure that this tendency to get so easily depressed about such things made me extremely vulnerable to women in my college years that had a more predatory agenda.
In the years since I really decided to try to improve my deal with women, that is, since 2009 or thereabouts, I've traced this river of dysfunction back to the source spring of the notion that I deemed a love interest a necessary component of my dating life and of my overall relationship with women. Since about 2012 I've attempted to short circuit this connection in my brain and do a workaround. I think that I can say that, right now, no woman in my world, regardless of how I'm acquainted with them, feels that I am trying to make them over into a love interest. If anyone does feel that way, they won't feel that way much longer, I reckon.
I reiterating this point because I don't know how many readers of this blog know that I've brought up this very subject many times in the past several years. I believe that I used to have love interests in my untreated years so that I could bring order to a pretty chaotic situation. The day would inevitably come where I had to let go of such women, and that day often marked another nervous breakdown period for me. So, ladies, the bad man Richard Alexander is NOT trying to make you over into something that you don't want to be. Understood?
In my youth, the unspoken idea that I HAD to have a love interest in order to play a part in the love game seemed start a lot of trouble for me. I can remember in high school that I would get so bummed out in any interactions with the girls around me that I wanted to get something going with. It didn't seem to matter whom I fixated on, I always seemed to wind up feeling really crappy that things didn't seem to have any possibility of working out for me. I figure that this tendency to get so easily depressed about such things made me extremely vulnerable to women in my college years that had a more predatory agenda.
In the years since I really decided to try to improve my deal with women, that is, since 2009 or thereabouts, I've traced this river of dysfunction back to the source spring of the notion that I deemed a love interest a necessary component of my dating life and of my overall relationship with women. Since about 2012 I've attempted to short circuit this connection in my brain and do a workaround. I think that I can say that, right now, no woman in my world, regardless of how I'm acquainted with them, feels that I am trying to make them over into a love interest. If anyone does feel that way, they won't feel that way much longer, I reckon.
I reiterating this point because I don't know how many readers of this blog know that I've brought up this very subject many times in the past several years. I believe that I used to have love interests in my untreated years so that I could bring order to a pretty chaotic situation. The day would inevitably come where I had to let go of such women, and that day often marked another nervous breakdown period for me. So, ladies, the bad man Richard Alexander is NOT trying to make you over into something that you don't want to be. Understood?
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