If they're regular readers of this blog, they don't seem to have much interest in buying my books or music. Harvey Pekar had this bottom line about his appearances on the old David Letterman NBC show: he decided to chuck it all because it didn't seem as if the people who watched him on Letterman bought his comic books. He famously decided to call out NBC, and their parent company General Electric, on the Letterman show regarding a lawsuit the State of Ohio was in with GE over a nuclear power plant. That really pissed of Letterman, and he had one more appearance after that.
It's nice to have an audience. An artist's struggle, no matter what their medium, is so much about finding an audience. I just get the sense that mine wants to stay anonymous, and that can be frustrating.
I'm getting hip to the idea that, in the world of attractive young or youngish women, the romantically obsessive guy with the mental illness is a common bad guy type, and might even top the Player in the ranking of types to avoid. This leads me to perhaps want to stay away from some of the businesses such as food service businesses that typically will employ attractive young women. My mere frequent presence at such places might send a signal to these women that I don't mean to send or want to send. I'm thinking about patronizing these places much less frequently that I usually do because of this. I'm singling out food service businesses because I can just make my own meals and coffee at home instead.
That would mean that I might have much less stuff to write about as far as the kind of interactions with young women that I go on about. Maybe someone else from the 80's will step up and provide some excitement, or that same person i've been talking about lately might decide that she's not happy with how things shook out, and she might try to make another play. If nothing like that happens, that would leave me with updates on my art and music, which might not be of much interest to my audience, if I even have the audience I imagine I have.