My first love interest I tried to win was Gwen, an undergrad at the School of Visual Arts-the school I attended as a graduate student. I really tried to refrain from pursuing her to the ends of the Earth and back, but that just meant that things took a really long time to shake out. Shortly after I encountered her in the school wood shop the week after Thanksgiving 1990, I realized that a lot of people at the school saw me as the obsessive weirdo/ bad guy, and I had a psychotic episode.
I then took an interest in Ann Marie, and that dragged out until I felt compelled to let her go the following Summer because I was moving back to Texas after graduation, and I never connected with her in any meaningful way- just some games and bullshit from her.
Jenna represented my next attempt to right the wrongs I'd done in letting Sara go. I met Jenna soon after I returned to Austin from New York/ New Jersey. By the late Spring of 1992, almost a year later, the wheels had come off, and I wound up calling her repeatedly to go on dates with me, and then the wheels came off some more. I went insane starting in July of 1992, after I let Jenna go on June 22nd, 1992.
So, I have no demands to make of this young woman I think about as much as I do. Similarly, I had no demands of the Invisible Woman in 2017/ 2018. Eventually, I stopped looking her up in the online celebrity news sites every day, without really noticing at first. These days I look up the Invisible Woman once every couple of weeks, if that much, and I'll often go for long stretches of weeks or months where I don't look her up at all. Yep, I have no demands to make of the Invisible Woman or anyone else who came after. I have absolutely zero romantic demands to make of any women in my world, or of the young woman I still go on about at length who is not even around anymore.