I had the thought last night that I did not really KNOW that incidental people in my world actually wanted me to pursue this young woman. A more realistic view might hold that such thoughts I have signify attempts by me to project this idea onto these interactions and comments from these people, by taking what they say or do out of context and applying it to my situation, such as it still exists, with this young woman.
I decided that I don't want to patronize this one business where I thought I possibly spotted this young woman a couple of times. I only go there a couple of times a month, and like I said, I don't know that I really saw HER, but it means a lot to me personally to impose this kind of restriction on myself, so I will do that. I remember back in 2012 I decided to stop wearing a t-shirt into a diner where I used to eat breakfast, because I had the notion that a certain waitress took offense to it. I didn't tell her that I stopped wearing this shirt, but I figured it meant a enough to ME to refrain from doing so. It took about two and half years before the women there snapped to my gesture, by which time I had to do kind of pitched psychic battle with this particular waitress and other employees at this diner. Talk about delayed gratification!