Okay, this is my conclusion (for now)

Okay, I think that this young woman I've been writing about was never really available for me or interested in me in a romantic love context.  I think, however, that she became someone who was "for" me, as in someone who was on my side in life.  I don't know the extent that she was not for me before she looked at me that one time, but I think she became someone who was for me in life.  I connected her to Linda, an old adversary, and I don't know whether that has any basis in reality.  My best guess is that she may very well read what I write here after all, and that she may have read or heard about the way my last two issues of my comic developed in the storyline, and that converted her to someone who is for me in life.  I think my refusal to pursue her romantically indicates that I am for her in the larger sense, because I refused to act on such impulses until I felt like I had a better sense of what all might be going on.  Yes I am for her.  Yes I am.