Oh god

I'm no mind reader, I swear.  But, I get the impression that my remark in the last post that implied this young woman I go on about is a vicious, horrible woman didn't go unnoticed.  I could be wrong, but I'm an internet content provider, so here goes.  I think about this person all the time, still.  She's long, long gone out of my world, but I still think about her.  That means I'm still quite fond of her, sometimes.  

Okay, I don't like that I have to fend off the adversarial advances of such as one a her as often as I do.  I admit it.  I don't like that.  So I'll amend my previous remarks about her and say I didn't like the attitude i perceived her to have towards me or the adversarial agenda she possibly tried to enact against me.  So, I mean to say that I perceived her agenda towards me as vicious and horrible, but I guess she means quite a bit else to people such as her friends, family, and, yeah, maybe her real boyfriends as well.  So, maybe she's not a vicious, horrible woman to everyone, and I guess I don't like the attitude and behavior I perceived her to have towards me, but I like her.

Here's the thing, though.  I know how to look out for her best interests as well as mine better than she does towards me.  My experience with Sara taught me how to look out for the both of us, even though I perceived her as having a desire to hurt me.  My ultimate agenda towards such a one as this young woman I go on about involves a demonstrable intention of looking out for her best interests as well as mine.  I never thought it in my best interests to harm her in any way, but I wish I could say the same for her and whatever she wanted in regards to me.