Like being on the reflecting side of a two-way mirror

I've got something of an audience, I believe.  I believe that I can express myself in ways to people that other people can't, because they may feel that not as many people pay attention to what they say or do online or in life.  So I'm lucky in that regard, I guess.  But, I'm not a mind reader.  If someone I was very fond of in a romantic way were a member of my audience, and I didn't have the access to their various forms of self-expression that they have in regards to me, I hope that such a person would forgive me if I didn't pick up on stuff they feel I should pick up on.  Again, I emphasize, I'm not a mind reader.  Right now I feel as if I'm trying to see a person on the other side of a two-way mirror when I can only see my own reflection, while they can see me and know that my heart and my mind turn to them often.  That's a hard position to occupy.   That's a hard position to feel comfortable occupying.