Last week I thought about avoiding this business I patronize when I knew this young woman I can go on and on about works there. Then I thought, if the issue comes down to simple incompatibility between myself and this young woman, I don't see how skipping out on opportunities to be around her and see her will help. If we are fundamentally incompatible, then we are that, no matter what. I have absolutely no desire to meet other women at this time, because I think of this person so much, and I would at least like to get a chance to know what she's like before I try to move on with my life in general, if it comes to that.
Here's how I spend MY days these days: I generally sleep a few hours at night. I have an early breakfast, usually a breakfast taco I make myself. I'll usually sleep some more that morning sometime. At some point during the day I may go to a coffee shop, the post office to my P.O. Box, and to a couple of other places that often include the business where this young woman works. I spend a lot of time at my apartment, where I will play guitar, work on my comic books, straighten up around the place a little (I try to do this every day), and do other things such as read comics, prose books, listen to music, text friends, and watch, read, and listen to stuff on my computer or my phone. I try to exercise, usually by walking for about thirty to forty minutes a day, I try to eat right and monitor all of that everyday. The vast majority of my time I spend by myself at home. Even before this pandemic period, the vast majority of the women I saw socially at music clubs and whatnot had longterm boyfriends or husbands, many of whom are my friends.
I'm still vey open to the idea of initiating some effort to get to know this young woman better, but I've gone over and over the issues that inhibit me a lot. Those issues have almost everything to do with how I'm acquainted with her in this world in the first place, namely, that she works somewhere I do business a lot, and that's about the extent of it. But still, I won't say no to making a substantial effort to getting things going in a major way. It just may take some time.
Here's how I spend MY days these days: I generally sleep a few hours at night. I have an early breakfast, usually a breakfast taco I make myself. I'll usually sleep some more that morning sometime. At some point during the day I may go to a coffee shop, the post office to my P.O. Box, and to a couple of other places that often include the business where this young woman works. I spend a lot of time at my apartment, where I will play guitar, work on my comic books, straighten up around the place a little (I try to do this every day), and do other things such as read comics, prose books, listen to music, text friends, and watch, read, and listen to stuff on my computer or my phone. I try to exercise, usually by walking for about thirty to forty minutes a day, I try to eat right and monitor all of that everyday. The vast majority of my time I spend by myself at home. Even before this pandemic period, the vast majority of the women I saw socially at music clubs and whatnot had longterm boyfriends or husbands, many of whom are my friends.
I'm still vey open to the idea of initiating some effort to get to know this young woman better, but I've gone over and over the issues that inhibit me a lot. Those issues have almost everything to do with how I'm acquainted with her in this world in the first place, namely, that she works somewhere I do business a lot, and that's about the extent of it. But still, I won't say no to making a substantial effort to getting things going in a major way. It just may take some time.
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