Which, of course, brings me to the point I want to make about Schmaylor Schmift. I think I will have much more success dealing with that situation if I regard the whole phenomenon of the notion of her I have in my head...: I think I will have much more success regarding all of that as the symptoms of a chronic illness rather than making any attempt to "keep my end up" in a supposed deal I have going with this person. The whole situation will prove much more manageable if I take care of it much as I would if I had diabetes or high blood pressure. That is all.