Okay, there's someone in my world that I care for a great deal, and I have only four problems with the idea of caring for this person. 1) I know her through her place of employment. She's not my coworker. I have a choice as to whether or not I visit her place of employment, but since it's her place of employment, she has to be there, even in the event that I would approach her for social reasons, and she did not want that and felt compelled to tell me so. I don't want to put her in a bad position. 2) The last I heard, she had a boyfriend. 3) Even if she did become newly single, she may have no interest in going out with me, 4) I used to accuse her in my mind of thinking herself too good to date me, but in the intervening days, weeks, and months since I held this belief about her, not to mention the many, many years beforehand when I commonly thought this about women I had an attraction to, I've decided that she has the right to reject me, no matter the reason. Even if I think her reasons for rejecting me are morally wrong, she still has the right to reject me for whatever reason she deems necessary. They abolished slavery in the 1860's in this country. So, it's up to her to broach the subject of whether or not we see each other socially, and I can live with it if that day never comes. This counts as one moment where I sincerely hope that people such as her in my world actually read this blog, because my desire for her remains constant, and I would at least like her to know that I will express that in some way.
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