I've concluded that because I got so hung up on Cathy and became so bummed out over what now seems to me to be a really minor thing-that she had a boyfriend- that tendency to get so easily bummed out over such a thing made me extremely vulnerable to the Katies, the Wandas, and the Lindas of the world. I would see women such as them as heaven sent, and the shit would happen.
Last night I got a little bummed out in regards to that young woman I still go on about. I thought about Cathy and all of the girls after her. I concluded that getting bummed out over this person would just leave me vulnerable to getting fucked over by someone else later on down the line. I'm not bummed out about this person now, and I doubt that I will get bummed out about her within the foreseeable future.