Breakthrough?

Today I've been thinking about the breakthrough I've supposedly reached of a romantic nature with this young woman at this business that I patronize.  Well, there were many breakthroughs back there in my past, come to think of it.  There was the breakthrough with Veronica in 1985 where I decided that I was in love on our first date.  I had more breakthroughs with her before I totally crashed and burned on her later that year.  There was a breakthrough with Wanda in 1986.  That breakthrough resulted in a crude sexual proposition that haunted me for years after.  I mean, not just haunted my conscience, but dogged me socially until the Summer of 1992.  That brings us to the breakthrough with Jenna in 1991.  Read about Jenna in previous posts or refer to my youtube link, "Richy Vegas, the Blind Assassin p.1."

I've just never mattered as much to these goddess types as much as I thought I did.  I'm not saying this out of self-pity or the expectation that this young woman owes me more than she's given me- any more than any of those women owed me in their day.  That's just the fact of the matter.  I might not have much experience in the way of success with this kind of woman, but even my failed deals matter as experience that I can draw on.

So if my decision seems premature to others, so be it.  Maybe some of the other employees have too much invested in this underdog stuff that's been going on since the Fall of 2014 with the first one.  I will not attempt to favor this young woman with any more attention or attempt to take a chance on her.  That is one short-lived reign as my queen, I will admit, but there's just nothing from women of that age and caliber of beauty that I'm looking for anymore.