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"Baby oh baby it must suck bein' you/ to love an animal who prob'ly eats his own poo/ baby oh baby what are you gonna do/ got a mile of crow to eat, between me and you" -a song about the pop star whose name rhymes with Schmaylor Schmift

12/4/2022

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Yeah, it must suck bein' Schmaylor right about now.  I wrote that song before I made her and everyone else look bad last year when I bravely approached that young girl I'd had a crush on for so long.  You know, that time, October, 2021, when I walked up to that cashier at that grocery store and invited her out to my comic book sale as she worked her shift, in front of God and everyone. 

Yeah, and just like I predicted it would suck for Schmaylor when she found out I wasn't the evil son-of-a-bitch she and her buddies made me out to be, I also made what turned into a prediction about that cashier at that grocery store in another post, if memory serves.  I said at one point that she probably played all of those hurtful games because she had a fear of rejection.

That girl quit her cashier job at that grocery store early this year.  Yet, I go in there to shop, and some of the young girls in there who look about as good as her come off so gruff, and so surly, and so standoffish to me that I actually find it kind of rude.  Mind you, not all the young girls at that store behave this way towards me.  Are they really singling me out?  Did they have a long, hard day at work, and they are just over being there?  Why is it only really, really pretty young girls of a certain type that come off that way?  Because they know they can be this way towards me and other customers and not get in trouble?

Maybe, just maybe, they are trying to tell me something.  If they are trying to tell me something, something along the lines of, say, I should reach out to that girl I expressed myself to last year through whatever means I think I may have at my disposal, well, okay.  So, instead of this young girl reaching out to me in some meaningful way, I'm to, once again, crash through barriers to express how I feel for HER,... AGAIN! ...No!

I don't respond to that kind of controlling, manipulative behavior in that manner.  If I were the type of person who responded to that kind of controlling, manipulative behavior in that manner, then I probably wouldn't have been the type of person to express my feelings for her in the first place on October, 22nd, 2021, while she worked in a busy grocery store, again, in front of God and everyone.  You can't have your cake and eat it too, you know. 

I'll continue to make my observations of those young girls at that grocery store, but our Miss Missy Miss gets just one of those.  What would she have to do to reach out to me?  Would she have to crash through certain barriers, and in so doing, acknowledge something that up until now she didn't acknowledge.  Now, who is the person between the two of us who has already done that towards the other person to the point where the other person knows EXACTLY where SHE stood with me at the time....oh, well, yes, that would be ME.

Does she not feel safe reaching out to me?  So she may feel unsafe.  Unsafe, how?  Does she fear that I will do her bodily harm, or does she fear that I will reject her?  She could take all the safeguards she could think of to prevent me from stalking her or otherwise threatening her in that way.  Now that she doesn't even work there anymore, and I would not find it easy to run down the only lead I may have- a lead I speculated on about three posts ago- she doesn't have much to fear from me in that department, especially if she and hers would just let sleeping dogs lie.

If my observations about controlling, manipulative behavior from those girls in that store ring true, then the fear of rejection explanation carries more weight, in my opinion.  Look, if she reached out to me a week or two from now, I cannot guarantee that I would not reject her somewhere down the line.  What I can guarantee, pretty much, is that I would never reject her for malicious or vindictive reasons.  That's more her and her buddies' department, remember.  That's what I had to go up against to express MY feelings for HER last October.  Yeah, love conquers hate.  Not easy to do, is it. 
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