I've stopped patronizing a food service business that employs a pretty good number of attractive women. Soon after I quit going there, I thought it might be a good idea to not go back there for quite some time, if at all. There's the factor of money. I have a lot of uses for the money I could save by just fixing stuff at home rather than go to food service places for the same items.
I figure that the main reason I would patronize this one establishment has to do with feeling as if I'm a part of the game. Hanging around those attractive young women might tend to make me feel as if I'm playing some part in the love/dating game, however small a part that is.
That's the same reason I would go around desperately seeking love interests to hang my mind on. Needing a love interest and needing to feel as if one plays a part in the game is not a need like food, water, or oxygen. The word "need" does not really apply to such a desire. Therefore, I will try my level best, one day at a time, I guess, to refrain from patronizing this particular business or businesses like it.
Not one woman who currently works at this business would have to worry that I'm trying to make them over into a love interest if I just stopped going there altogether. I count about seven or eight young women at this place that could just chill out about that if I stopped going there. I guess I will know if I'm serious in about a month or a month and a half.
My last post talked about following my Buddha. That's what this is about. It's not as if anyone- myself, or these employees at this one business, or anyone else- has done anything that necessitates this move. I just want to live life a bit differently than how I'm used to living it. A few posts ago I griped about how nothing ever changes for me. I griped about how, no matter what the changes I've made, nothing ever changes as far as any real improvement in my relationship with women. I guess that's debatable, but there always seems to be some kind of significant change I can make; whether it's something such as trying to refrain from staring at woman and young girls, paying attention to my personal hygiene and grooming habits, or just taking a fork in the road that I usually don't take. The biggest room in the world; room for improvement. It's not all about losing and maintaining a forty to fifty pound weight loss, which is hard.
I figure that the main reason I would patronize this one establishment has to do with feeling as if I'm a part of the game. Hanging around those attractive young women might tend to make me feel as if I'm playing some part in the love/dating game, however small a part that is.
That's the same reason I would go around desperately seeking love interests to hang my mind on. Needing a love interest and needing to feel as if one plays a part in the game is not a need like food, water, or oxygen. The word "need" does not really apply to such a desire. Therefore, I will try my level best, one day at a time, I guess, to refrain from patronizing this particular business or businesses like it.
Not one woman who currently works at this business would have to worry that I'm trying to make them over into a love interest if I just stopped going there altogether. I count about seven or eight young women at this place that could just chill out about that if I stopped going there. I guess I will know if I'm serious in about a month or a month and a half.
My last post talked about following my Buddha. That's what this is about. It's not as if anyone- myself, or these employees at this one business, or anyone else- has done anything that necessitates this move. I just want to live life a bit differently than how I'm used to living it. A few posts ago I griped about how nothing ever changes for me. I griped about how, no matter what the changes I've made, nothing ever changes as far as any real improvement in my relationship with women. I guess that's debatable, but there always seems to be some kind of significant change I can make; whether it's something such as trying to refrain from staring at woman and young girls, paying attention to my personal hygiene and grooming habits, or just taking a fork in the road that I usually don't take. The biggest room in the world; room for improvement. It's not all about losing and maintaining a forty to fifty pound weight loss, which is hard.
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