I've interacted a little with some of the women at my new job, and all I have to say is, man, I don't want to end up as a featured story on Reddit Nice Guys or whatever that group is called. I subscribe to YouTube videos by Walter Fate, or Fatal Walter, and Vincey who just read horror stories written by girls and women who've encountered "nice guys" and posted their version of events on this Reddit page. The problem is, I recognize some version of myself in these obsessive, mostly younger boys and men who assign way too much significance to everyday interactions with women they happen to have a strong attraction to....and the race is on.
I hope I can never really go back to those versions of myself from earlier days. I hope it's like a testimonial a guy gave at my old stop smoking group, where he said he was addicted to cigarettes, and that he could easily relapse and go back to smoking, but he knew that is just wouldn't be the same as it was before if he did go back to smoking heavily.
Anyway, I spent my entire time at this event selling my Richy Vegas titles, and after this event ended, I noted that I really didn't think much at all about any women in my world I have an attraction to while I sat at my table trying to get people to buy my books. I like not having a love interest.