I'm trying to rein in my discretionary spending these days. These two food service businesses are two very tempting places to put on the chopping block, so to speak, or at least limit severely the extent to which I patronize either of these places. That's one reason to perhaps not see these two women at their places of employment so much as I'm used to. I mean, not see them so much by a LOT, too.
Another reason I've seriously thought about cutting WAY BACK on the extent to which I patronize these two places has to do with how available I want to make myself to these two women. Could making myself less available to these two women possibly coax the kind of attention I would like from either or both of them? What if that doesn't work out? I'll have saved some money, sure, but will all that effort to make myself more scarce to these women pay off in any other way?
I kind of doubt it, but here's the thing: Making myself less available to both of these women may be something I can look at as a practice drill for a more consequential situation with a woman or women down the road. That kind of thing has definitely happened before. I was going to tell a story that totally illustrated that point, but that would take too much time.
Okay, here goes: It involved that virgin girl at that grocery story I still patronize. That whole situation was no drill, believe me on that. The decisions I made in that situation regarding her and whether I really wanted to approach her for social reasons at all proved very critical and consequential as to which path I took.
I decided to blow that virgin girl off completely, and I made her look like a total asshole in doing so. The thing is, I'd had practice in blowing her off in a situation the previous year that involved a very attractive receptionist at my friend's printing company where I tried to temp for a while.
At that time, in the spring of 2013, I'd decided to revive the "what if I turned my back on love" experiment of my youth. The whole situation regarding that receptionist at a that printing company vibed drill to me at the time. All I did was stop calling the place to see if they had work for me. I make the decision to stop calling after I couldn't get work for a couple or three weeks. I just took my desire to do temp work to a temp agency, and that settled that.
I KNEW, that when I stopped calling my friend for temp work, and in so doing took the presence of that beautiful receptionist out of my world; I just knew that kind of renunciation would not be a drill some day, and sure enough, one year later, that virgin girl at that grocery store fired a shot across my bow, thus signaling her desire to engage with me in what she considered some fun and games. Asshole!