I think I saw that former cashier I go on and on about at my job the other day. She was with a really handsome guy around her age who must have been her significant other. I wondered whether or not it was her when I saw her. I initially concluded that it wasn't her at the time, but the vibe in my world in the minutes, hours, and days following my sighting seemed to tell me otherwise. Anyway, I didn't give her any stink eye looks or act surly or sullen or anything. I just vibed neutral and nonchalant, I suppose. The vibe I caught in my world seemed to tell me that how I handled it was good. The young woman I saw the other day, God, no wonder I became fixated on that former cashier, because this young woman looked even better than the former cashier I remembered.
Regular readers of this blog will recall the entries of the last week, where I talked about how much I loved her and how I was sure she loved me, then I snapped out of it with a really curt declaration that it's okay to leave a situation that vibes shitty treatment from the other party. Yeah, hanging around in a situation and putting up with bad treatment just because one thinks the other party might, possibly care for one is the worst reason to hang around such a situation I can think of. That and hanging around because one loves such a person. Neck and neck terrible reasons those two. Fortunately, I've made letting go of this person a side gig of mine for the past six years. A gig I've played many, many times before my gig of last week. I managed a three day turnaround with last week's gig.
Maybe that's why she showed up at my job with that dude. I think I nailed it on the head a few weeks ago when I said I might have one up on her with my ability to take proactive measures when faced with a potentially bad scene. I accused her of not having the level of development I have in that department. I accused her of allowing potentially bad scenes to degenerate into total shit shows, because that's all she knew about how those things can go. Yeah, see for yourself baby. Did I vibe hostile when you came into my world the other day? Like I said, I've made it a major side gig to let go of you. Maybe her appearance the other day, if that was her, was her attempt to set me free from her games.
Regular readers of this blog will recall the entries of the last week, where I talked about how much I loved her and how I was sure she loved me, then I snapped out of it with a really curt declaration that it's okay to leave a situation that vibes shitty treatment from the other party. Yeah, hanging around in a situation and putting up with bad treatment just because one thinks the other party might, possibly care for one is the worst reason to hang around such a situation I can think of. That and hanging around because one loves such a person. Neck and neck terrible reasons those two. Fortunately, I've made letting go of this person a side gig of mine for the past six years. A gig I've played many, many times before my gig of last week. I managed a three day turnaround with last week's gig.
Maybe that's why she showed up at my job with that dude. I think I nailed it on the head a few weeks ago when I said I might have one up on her with my ability to take proactive measures when faced with a potentially bad scene. I accused her of not having the level of development I have in that department. I accused her of allowing potentially bad scenes to degenerate into total shit shows, because that's all she knew about how those things can go. Yeah, see for yourself baby. Did I vibe hostile when you came into my world the other day? Like I said, I've made it a major side gig to let go of you. Maybe her appearance the other day, if that was her, was her attempt to set me free from her games.
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