In early to mid-2009, I was several months into my commitment to abstinence from drugs and alcohol. I made this commitment in the first place to try to improve my relationship with women. I remember one night, at home by myself, when I sat there for a long time trying to figure out which of five Thunderbird Coffee baristas would make the best love interest for me. The answer, I realized sometime later, was that NONE of them made for a good love interest. There was no pea underneath any of the five shells that represented those five Thunderbird baristas.
I think about that night now as I think of young, attractive women in my world. What if I just played to the notion that no pea resides underneath any shell that would represent a young, attractive woman in my world? Would I resign myself to an unfulfilled existence if I did so? What if all I did was make intelligent decisions about how to regard someone such as that former cashier and refrain from casting about for a love interest from amongst the attractive young woman in my world? Would I miss out on genuine opportunities to get with someone in my world?
I’ve decided that the most intelligent way I can regard that former cashier would reside in the notion of considering her for a platonic friendship should she show up sometime in the coming days or weeks. Regarding her as that kind of possibility seems to get a load off of my back. I don’t have to bother with trying to make a romantic connection with her. I don’t have to bother with trying to THINK ABOUT trying to make a romantic connection to her. I have several platonic female friends now. One more probably wouldn’t hurt, and it makes it no big deal if she never shows up to be that one more platonic friend.
I think about that night now as I think of young, attractive women in my world. What if I just played to the notion that no pea resides underneath any shell that would represent a young, attractive woman in my world? Would I resign myself to an unfulfilled existence if I did so? What if all I did was make intelligent decisions about how to regard someone such as that former cashier and refrain from casting about for a love interest from amongst the attractive young woman in my world? Would I miss out on genuine opportunities to get with someone in my world?
I’ve decided that the most intelligent way I can regard that former cashier would reside in the notion of considering her for a platonic friendship should she show up sometime in the coming days or weeks. Regarding her as that kind of possibility seems to get a load off of my back. I don’t have to bother with trying to make a romantic connection with her. I don’t have to bother with trying to THINK ABOUT trying to make a romantic connection to her. I have several platonic female friends now. One more probably wouldn’t hurt, and it makes it no big deal if she never shows up to be that one more platonic friend.
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