I decided it would be okay to do more of that kind of thing if I concern myself more with the process than actual, conventional measures of success. I figure that success, to me, depends too much on the acceptance of me by other people. There can be all kinds of reasons I won't find that kind of success in music, ever. But if I can just get into the process of trying to bring that kind of thing about, and not concern myself with actual, conventional measures of success, I might be okay with that.