Note to self: Don't try to rebound, don't try to cash in

Yeah, it seems that now looks like a good time to bail on my "deal" with this famous woman.  The job hunt is underway, and I'll wrap up whatever loose ends impede that process in the next couple of days.  The smartest thing I did coming out of that whole deal with that former cashier involved resisting the urge to try to rebound or cash in as far as things went with ALL the other women in the world.  That resistance to try and do that marked the first time I put my realization into practice that things can really suck for me in the aftermath of those experiences.  The experience I refer to specifically being the transcendent experience I had when I approached that girl at her cashier job for social reasons.  Some of my very, very worst experiences I had in all of my relationship with women stemmed, probably, from the expectations I had that I could cash in on such a transcendent experience.

Sure enough, I can cite several instances where attractive women were less than wonderful with me after that transcendent experience with that girl at her cashier job.  It was like I was young again, except I was just reliving the parts of being young that really, really sucked for me.  Again, maybe it was the EXPECTATIONS I had after those transcendent experiences in my youth that made things suck so much for me.  Well, I didn't have those expectations so much this last time around, and I'll try to not have those expectations this time around after, I guess, I've let go of any expectation of getting with this famous woman.