In the spring of 1985, I worried that if I didn't do enough to get with my love interest, Veronica, I would "cool myself out of the picture." Considering all of the shit that hit the fan with that one, I now think cooling myself out of the picture might have been just the thing to do about Veronica. I don't have a love interest right now, but I wonder if that waitress in that diner put in a good word for me to the rest of the world, including women. Yeah, I guess I was nice enough about how things didn't work out, but I'm also wondering if I'm just projecting my inner world onto those in my outer world and engaging in a type of wishful thinking. Accepting the outcome that came to pass with her does NOT seem like that big a deal to ME. Does it really count as that big a deal to the women in my world?
I'm trying to refrain from going to the coffee shop and the diners with the cute baristas, and waitresses, and customers because I'm not sure I'm finding what I'm looking for in those places. I've felt THAT way for some time. This stuff about the good word from that waitress is a more recent line of thinking. I'm trying to save money by refraining from patronizing those businesses as frequently as I usually patronize them, but this line of thinking about the good word from the waitress at that diner gets in the way. I don't want to go to the coffee shop five times a day for three weeks and the diner every single morning to try and confirm whether or not what I'm wishing for has any basis in reality. So yeah, "What if I cool myself out of the picture?" I don't think such a line of inquiry counts as sabotaging a good deal. I just don't think that.
I'm trying to refrain from going to the coffee shop and the diners with the cute baristas, and waitresses, and customers because I'm not sure I'm finding what I'm looking for in those places. I've felt THAT way for some time. This stuff about the good word from that waitress is a more recent line of thinking. I'm trying to save money by refraining from patronizing those businesses as frequently as I usually patronize them, but this line of thinking about the good word from the waitress at that diner gets in the way. I don't want to go to the coffee shop five times a day for three weeks and the diner every single morning to try and confirm whether or not what I'm wishing for has any basis in reality. So yeah, "What if I cool myself out of the picture?" I don't think such a line of inquiry counts as sabotaging a good deal. I just don't think that.
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