I have to do a lot of this

In my last post I talked about a specific kind of cruel rejection game I felt a waitress at Magnolia Cafe on Lake Austin Blvd. tried to visit on me in 2016.  I said she tried to make me over into a loser in her game by trying to get me to vie for her affections when she was already hooked up with her new boyfriend.  She had her new boyfriend as the winner in her game, but she couldn't leave it at that.  She had to pick some guy to be the loser.  I was just a regular customer in her restaurant.  I would eat breakfast there after I would drop my dad off at work.  I figured out what was going on and decided to stop going there for breakfast.  I saw her a year and a half later when I ate breakfast again there for the first time after all that time.  She acted as if she was glad to see me.

If someone in my world tried to play the same game with me these days, and I could not opt out of seeing them on a regular basis, my forgiveness towards them would just take a different form, a form  that would line up with the circumstances I found myself in with them.  I would forgive them in the sense that I would not try to retaliate against them.  I consider retaliation any acting out behaviors.  These include harassment, intimidation, threats, and I would break those things down into just trying to refrain from coming off as glowering or menacing around them in the way I looked at them or talked to them.  I don't know if I would ever want to be best buddies with such a person, but I could forgive them in the manner I just laid out.  I  tend to feel better just thinking about behaving in such a manner towards such a person.