In a post last year I wrote about two women I met since my relative stability due to psych meds since the spring of 1995. In that post from last year, I said I counted Celeste and Lauren as the TWO, count 'em folks, TWO women I would have liked to have another crack at as far as putting myself out there to get with someone. TWO! Why these two? They were both attractive and nice, that's why. I've beat myself up many a time over not taking advantage of the opportunities both of them seemed to want to give me to get to know them better, but, I repeat, TWO women in the last thirty years I can put in this category.
If there were someone in my world now who fits the description of being both attractive and nice, AND seemingly interested in getting to know me better, AND I let such a woman slip through my fingers, what would that say about me? I think all it would say is that I had THREE, count 'em folks, THREE women in the last thirty years I could put in such a category.
In my last post I talked about how I kind of keep my desires to get to know attractive coworkers better under my hat, because doing so seems to help me get along with the women I work with better. I talked about how such restraint might actually work against me should I encounter a coworker who seems to actually want to get to know me better. Okay, suppose I let an opportunity to get with a coworker I'm attracted to slip through my fingers, AND, it turns out, she was a nice person as well as an attractive woman. Okay, read the previous paragraph. Specifically, the part about how that would count as THREE woman in the last THIRTY YEARS who seemingly wanted to get to know me better, who were quite attractive, and who seemed nice, but that I let slip through my fingers.
That's not very many opportunities to get with such a type of woman in the first place, in my opinion. I don't think that's enough opportunities to get bent out of shape over. Furthermore, I think I might stand a better chance of getting more, and better, opportunities with women I really liked if I continued to do things such as keep my desires for hot coworkers under my hat and just do my job and try to get along with such women in that context and setting. It might not lead to opportunities with hot coworkers specifically, but the day to day discipline it takes to leave all of that getting with women stuff on the back burner might spill over into other arenas with other women in a beneficial way. So yeah, let me repeat what I concluded in my last post. I'm willing to let a potential love of my life slip through my fingers and take a chance that in doing so it helped me get along better with women in my world as a whole.
If there were someone in my world now who fits the description of being both attractive and nice, AND seemingly interested in getting to know me better, AND I let such a woman slip through my fingers, what would that say about me? I think all it would say is that I had THREE, count 'em folks, THREE women in the last thirty years I could put in such a category.
In my last post I talked about how I kind of keep my desires to get to know attractive coworkers better under my hat, because doing so seems to help me get along with the women I work with better. I talked about how such restraint might actually work against me should I encounter a coworker who seems to actually want to get to know me better. Okay, suppose I let an opportunity to get with a coworker I'm attracted to slip through my fingers, AND, it turns out, she was a nice person as well as an attractive woman. Okay, read the previous paragraph. Specifically, the part about how that would count as THREE woman in the last THIRTY YEARS who seemingly wanted to get to know me better, who were quite attractive, and who seemed nice, but that I let slip through my fingers.
That's not very many opportunities to get with such a type of woman in the first place, in my opinion. I don't think that's enough opportunities to get bent out of shape over. Furthermore, I think I might stand a better chance of getting more, and better, opportunities with women I really liked if I continued to do things such as keep my desires for hot coworkers under my hat and just do my job and try to get along with such women in that context and setting. It might not lead to opportunities with hot coworkers specifically, but the day to day discipline it takes to leave all of that getting with women stuff on the back burner might spill over into other arenas with other women in a beneficial way. So yeah, let me repeat what I concluded in my last post. I'm willing to let a potential love of my life slip through my fingers and take a chance that in doing so it helped me get along better with women in my world as a whole.
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