Last summer, I got back in touch with a way of looking at my seemingly ever-present dilemmas with women. I returned to the idea that God is giving me plenty of chances to get (Schmaylor Schmift) right. Nowadays, just insert (that former cashier) in the place of (Schmaylor Schmift). Last summer got REALLY lonely for me too. It was as if the attractive women in the small town I stayed in knew what a piece of shit I was in how I related to women. At least that part of it is better now. I glanced at a Washington Post article today about a Facebook group that seems to fit the description of what I might be facing to a "T." Well now, isn't that precious.
Anyhoo, just because I'm actually inclined to believe that God wants me to get that former cashier right, that doesn't necessarily mean "happily ever after" with her. Far from it. Saying to myself that God wants me to get her right allows me to pivot in all kinds of directions in regards to her, depending on what I feel my actual options are, and the only rules about the decisions I make regarding her have to do with what such a God would accept as intelligent decisions regarding her. Got it?
That said, okay, she started in on me in February of 2019, okay. She's STILL an issue for me, and, right now, I'm inclined to believe that she's STILL an issue for me does NOT necessarily just mark me as can obsessive guy who can carry a torch for an unavailable woman for years. Not at all. But, just in case that torch bearing angle really constitutes the whole of my dilemma regarding her, that DOES NOT negate how relevant and effectual my decision to lay down my burden on this issue and let God do His/Her thing can prove in bringing about an acceptable, nay viable, turn of events in the coming days, weeks, and months.
Okay, why is she still an issue for me, if it may not just mean I carry a pointless, futile torch for her? I think her end of it, in regards to me as someone she wants to get to know better, might just exist. I've done enough skeptical inquiry, eliminated some of the other possibilities, at least to some extent, and conclude....that God wants me to get this former cashier right, and that He/She is giving me PLENTY, but PLENTY of chances to get her right.. Is it June, 2019 already? Oh, and before I sign off: If it's about the presence of her absence from here on out, that's STILL something God wants me to get right, and I will have LOTS of time and LOTS of chances to do just that.
Anyhoo, just because I'm actually inclined to believe that God wants me to get that former cashier right, that doesn't necessarily mean "happily ever after" with her. Far from it. Saying to myself that God wants me to get her right allows me to pivot in all kinds of directions in regards to her, depending on what I feel my actual options are, and the only rules about the decisions I make regarding her have to do with what such a God would accept as intelligent decisions regarding her. Got it?
That said, okay, she started in on me in February of 2019, okay. She's STILL an issue for me, and, right now, I'm inclined to believe that she's STILL an issue for me does NOT necessarily just mark me as can obsessive guy who can carry a torch for an unavailable woman for years. Not at all. But, just in case that torch bearing angle really constitutes the whole of my dilemma regarding her, that DOES NOT negate how relevant and effectual my decision to lay down my burden on this issue and let God do His/Her thing can prove in bringing about an acceptable, nay viable, turn of events in the coming days, weeks, and months.
Okay, why is she still an issue for me, if it may not just mean I carry a pointless, futile torch for her? I think her end of it, in regards to me as someone she wants to get to know better, might just exist. I've done enough skeptical inquiry, eliminated some of the other possibilities, at least to some extent, and conclude....that God wants me to get this former cashier right, and that He/She is giving me PLENTY, but PLENTY of chances to get her right.. Is it June, 2019 already? Oh, and before I sign off: If it's about the presence of her absence from here on out, that's STILL something God wants me to get right, and I will have LOTS of time and LOTS of chances to do just that.
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